There are a lot of reflections that need to be done. Mostly are pertaining to how 2014 had been for me so far. Most certainly, I just need another thinking time again to make sense of what's happening. Some people say I am a thinker more than a doer. Perhaps that is the main reason why I love writing...so that I can see right through my eyes what my thoughts are because they all come so fast like a rush that make all of it so hard to digest.
I have always needed to write things down so that I can absorb it better. Now, we'll see how I can figure out to fix this life of mine through writing yet again on this blog.
Oddly, I am still at the office. I still want to work -- make calls, send e-mails and text updates -- but there is someone in me that says I need to stop for a while and just write everything down. This is me again in a situation of getting a grip, because lately, I have been so restless. I cannot stay home. I cannot stay at one place. For me, I cannot be stuck with my situation now. I hope, after this entry or entries, I will be more calm and more focused on my goals.
It scares me to write all the things I went and have been going through; but fear cannot be defeated without looking on its eye, right? Perhaps, this is the right time to be brave.
They say "Fortune Favors the Brave," so let us see if I can finally break free from all these coma --mentally, emotionally, spiritually but thank God, not physically! I am still so blessed after all.
My manager always tells me that wherever you will be put in life, problems never stop. It really never will...and it is so true! It just depends on how you see and deal with these things.
Perhaps, these past few months, I sort of lost myself. I sort of lost God. And I sort of forgot my purpose.
But I am happy again because I find myself 1) Spending alone time again in the office joyfully and recollecting myself, and 2) I am writing on this blog again.
They say do not post anything personal on the web, because your privacy will be revealed. But for me, at the end of the day, I just want to find myself again and to be an inspiration on people who goes through the same things or if this is in the books already, somebody will stumble upon these entries just in time when they need it the most.
I know I am ready to be okay and to be better again, because of this perfect indication I know very well; I cannot stop typing spontaneously without thinking so hard on what to write. I am sure most of you know this feeling...like when you are writing on your diary every night.
So here goes fixing the life of me. ;)
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